Social Insecurity

Hello everyone, how's it going?

This is going to be a little explanation of one of my biggest issues: my social insecurity.

As i mentioned in a previous journal, i'm a huge introvert, so it's hard for me to talk to other people and especially girls. But there's more to this than just talking from person to person...

I am really bad at answering to others via messages. If someone sends me a message via Whatsapp, Facebook or even here on Deviantart, i have a hard time answering to this message. But why is that so?

Well...thanks to another issue that i've got, i have a very low self-esteem. And because of that, i don't think to high of myself, or see myself as important. So i don't go to parties that often, or have that much social contacts in general. I don't see myself as a person you want to talk to or even spend time with.

So, if someone texts me on any platform, i see the message, i read the message...but i can't get myself to answer to it. And it doesn't matter who sends it, if it's someone from my family, my friends or someone different. And i hate that, but i can't help it. I tried multiple times to fight it, but...till now, i failed.

So if you send me a note on here, and i don't answer in a couple of days, it's not because of you. I know i'm not the only one with this issue, but i don't know if others talk about it.

Anyway, i just wanted to tell you guys. I know that there are a couple of awesome guys doing rps with me. So like i said, it's not because of you, it's because of me.

I hope you have a nice day.

See ya!